And suddenly… I’m just testing out what it’s like to start out my sentences with “and suddenly”. Anyway, I’ve been tinkering around with the whole life-is-what-you-make-it, mind-over-matter [or, mind-over-self in this case] concept since I first read Chaucer at age three. Kidding. It was Sartre and I was four. Over the years I’ve read a number of books and articles of varying aspects on the subject and watched plenty ‘O shows on Discovery, PBS, etc. The mind is simply fascinating. A great deal of what I’ve read and watched, of course, is speculation, theory, and a whole lot of studies and tests whose answers only raise twenty more questions. This piques my intrigue of the unknown in a big way.
I read a book back in ’95 called The Holographic Universe by Michael Talbot[recommended by my brother outlaw Luke]. The book postulates a theory that the universe is – you guessed it – a hologram. It’s like a real life Matrix in some sense. Based off the independent and collaborative works of renowned Quantum Physicist David Bohm [of Bohm-diffusion, Aharonov-Bohm effect, Manhattan Project and McCarthyism fame] and renowned neurophysiologist Dr. Karl H Pribram [of Holonomic brain theory fame and vastly broadening our understanding of the limbic system] and French Physicist Alain Aspect [of the Bell test experiments fame], Talbot assists in breaking down this concept into more palatable language for the masses – explaining that all we see, know, and experience are not separate pieces of a whole, but rather, everything is connected – albeit at a deeper, not yet perceived level. As we see islands in the water as being separate land masses, when we go beneath the water, we find out that these islands are not separate at all, but rather connected – even by great distances – to each other by the same land mass, just that most of what connects them is hidden from view below the water.
What does this have to do with mind-over-matter and my life-is-what-you-make-it reference earlier, you query? I’m an experimental kind of guy. So when it comes to improving my physical, mental, or emotional health, I like to go beyond the fraction of a sliver of knowledge and understanding of the world around us and experimentally delve into the vast ocean of the unknown nature of our existence that we have yet to discover, and toy around with who we are and what it means “to be”.
In this post, I wanted to touch on the relationship between my deeper perception of existence, my everyday perception of existence [and why they differ so immensely], and the effects it has on my daily moods, emotions, drive, self-esteem and self confidence. I’m curious about not only the effects of this relationship, but more so how I can affect this relationship and how I can bridge the gap so much so as to possibly merge the two – to live life via how I truly see life.
Looking up at what I originally wrote as the title of this post [it started off as “Who Can Turn The World On With A Smile”], I confess all I really wanted to say in this post is that I wanted to walk around being more happy and positive, and less pessimistic, cynical and stressed. I used to be far more extroverted back in high school, and quickly thereafter became far more introverted than is probably good for me. Since it’s reached a somewhat unhealthy state, I’d like to shoot for the high school extrovertedness in the hopes I can reach a more balanced middle ground of intro/extro. I kind of miss not having anxiety and having a far greater ability to roll with the punches.
Alright, since this post is getting a bit lengthy and all I’ve done is laid out one big preface [plus, I still need to do my crappy day job], I’ll end this post with a dramatic pause…
…and a climactic “to be continued”. Besides, this is and always has been an on-going topic for me and the studio audience inside my brain, so I’ll have plenty to say for many posts to come [possibly enough to fill a book. Book idea, I say? Sure! Why not!].