I’m not too big on keeping tabs, but if I recall, I believe I am now starting chapter six of my life story – new chapters being where one experiences a life event that changes life as one knows it, and facilitates a significant shift of one’s personality/character/overall view on life. I find I’m taking each new upheaval with more and more grace. This is good news for me. There are plenty ‘O things where I say “oh, I am this”, but when I think about it (or better, when someone holds a mirror up to me), I’m really quite the opposite. My desires to be so does nothing to actually make it so. So, to see that I am actually learning from my mistakes, and not just saying that I do, helps put me at ease. I’m not all fuck up and no growth. Not all BP in the Gulf and no chubby.